reflection of surrender
Hello Reader,
The other day when I was doing my meditation, my Ph.D. supervisor came to my mind...the last time we talked she was angry with me for some reason...we were not getting along very well with her...because I was challenging her on all levels with the knowledge and logic of things and making her frustrated in the end...even though I was making her angry I knew that she liked me because I challenged ideas not to challenge personalities but the ideas...she passed away last year...and I was not even able to go to her funeral ...because it was thousand kilometers away...for some reason I guess I feel that I have not said my last farewell to her and it made feel sad....I owe much to her as she opened her lab. and let me follow my curiosity without constraining me and I published probably 15+ articles this way...I don't know why she came to my mind...maybe I guess the thoughts of what am I doing here in this job and wasting all my education, knowledge in this job...I don't know...once I am back in my hometown I need to visit her grave and say my goodbyes...today we do the usual...calm drive back and good walk with my dog...I listened to music while walking for some reason the sound was so clear and beautiful...I heard a night bird from the kitchen window before coming down here to write, I listened to it for a while...
frustrated reflection of surrender makes you be acceptive and loving
up in your words, looking in happiness of now regenerative feast
beloved creation of ascender awakes thou be receptive and growing
up in your regards, daring generousness of overflow repentive fast
King H. Ironson
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