COST OF LIVING

 Dear Reader,

I am happy that you are having a bright day :)

Even some readers might experience a gloomy day like I do here 

Those that have a gloomy day I am sure there are many things hidden in your day that are bright as the sun.

It just takes one to find them...

For instance in my day, it was cold...

my feet froze even underneath the socks...

even though I have a cold resistant feet

Even my day was cold and gloomy I sit outside for a while and now I am confident 

that the Blue Jay nested around somewhere close

it came twice to the feeder and once it looked to me!

It gave me hope and made my day..

I listened to the sound of the rain hitting to the fabric of gazebo...

listened and watched birds come and go by the feeder, fountain... 

These all made me feel good..

but during these I get a little bit more depressed about finding a job....

and I am started to feel like I am useless 

all that education degrees work 

for nothing...

I am a Ph.D. of Nothing

I don't even want to apply for a new job just to avoid disappointment...

need some luck on this... 

obviously selling books does not make money enough to cover the cost of living

"cost of living"

such a wrong word...

the basic living shouldn't have a cost...

I did not agreed to be an "economical value" 

when I came to this world!

It was not my choice....to grow in a world that abuse you and make you a tiny piece of the economic system...

some piece that is used and abused over and over until death..

a self inflicted sour poem from me to me...

I'm a Ph.D. of Nothing

am I that disappointing

your ways looking

to move towards slacking

don't you consider cost of living

can't you see that I am trying

things you spit out are enlightening

benefit a little bit also for your own shining

                                  King H. Ironson

Cost of Living

Cost of Dying

Lost in Trying

Surviving

in Calculating 

the Costing

I don't want to cost anything

I am saving

                King H. Ironson

(Photograph: Imustbedead)

Note (to me)

You need to take care of myself a little bit...

need to rediscover your self 

one cell at a time...

and its not a crime...

to use your time 

for feeling good about yourself

don't fall in the trap of excessive self criticism