My dearest tomorrow
Hello My Dearest Readers,
Last evening I fell a sleep around 9 pm and slept until 2 am then went to sleep again until 6.30 am...
its just like whenever I put my head to a pillow, I sleep instantaneously...
My body is pushing me to sleep...
feels like I need to sleep to grow....
even though I am not tired and didn't do too much physical activities...
there is this great urge and need to sleep
also I see weird dreams as I sleep
have this weird energy
weird vibe...
I cannot pinpoint exactly what it is
it doesn't feel good or bad
its neutral not a bad depressive feeling or a joyful hysteria
its like the sense of something is changing at a foundation level
a feeling of change, a shift but not sure what kind....
its like I am expanding and cannot fit to the container that I am in
a feeling of tightness, and sprouting
the dream I saw was like that as well
it was like I had a miniature life in a glass jar and it was growing and growing
but it was constrained by the container
it wanted to go out and expand further,
expand limitless, but it was limited....
it was limited by its container....
I guess I have the feeling of being fitted in a small container
it just gave me a feeling that even after I get out from this container
I will not be able to get back inside it
because as I grow I transformed into something I was not before...
as I was breaking the container by expanding
which was painful yet very releasing and relieving the glass was
breaking and cutting and slashing my meat as I expand
I was bleeding all over yet getting my being out...
free from an invisible prison...
just like hatching from an egg
or getting out from your cocoon..
more painful though...
I woke up around 2 am with this
breathing heavily and heart racing...
drink a glass of water and get back into
sleep to continue seeing the dream again
I wanted to get over with it.
and also there was this envelope for
me with a weird look
you can understand from the looks of it
that it contained an important information..
couldn't see the dream again...
but I just didn't want to wake up as well
I hardly woke up readied my son for school, send him on his school,
meditated than wrote this to you...
don't blow
go start grow
don't settle for low
expand beyond glow
don't ask me how
it is in your now
don't be slow
fly like an arrow
don't hide in shadow
expose pure as snow
don't breed sorrow
seed's of hope you should sow
my dearest fellow
pride and ego you had swallow
leave your pain, outgrow
open your heart free as a sparrow
My dearest tomorrow
I await you so mellow
go rest on your pillow
pain and bleed inflow
as you upgrow
freedom is my final meow.
kING h. iRONSON
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