the key to exit found in your wonder
Dear Reader,
I am listening to some old punk music and drinking some Lion's Brew...
foamy goodness
I guess its a well deserved beer and relief
reader I learned that
Pixies
Smashing Pumpkins
and
Echo & The Bunny Man
is coming to Toronto for show...
very exciting but when I saw the price of the tickets
my excitement was converted to disappointment
unfortunately I haven't seen any of them live
and I would very much like to experience them live
who knows maybe I will be able to see them...
maybe not... we will see
reader last 2-3 days I found myself in great darkness in my meditations
and I try to focus on the light in this darkness and I am successful on shining light on it
but first couple of days, I have immersed myself in that pitch darkness
I searched pieces of myself in swallowing nothingness
in one aspect it was cold and silent
try to feel all this experience and tried to understand
what associations I have in here
thinked and tried to find remnants of self hate, pity, anger, ego, hatred
like a small kid in the sandbox
i poked the darkness with my hands, sieved through my wounds, pains, traumas, issues to find
attitudes
adopted attitudes
gained by pain, suffering and disappointment
I wanted to transform
any leftover residues...
today...in my meditation I found my self in a weird type of situation
it was not dark but by the end when I had the highest vibration
all the bright shine turned to purple...
this happens to me from time to time
than more strange visions and experiences happened
this was not something I can explain clearly...
there is no descriptions or words of emotions that can explain that
my heartbeat increased and my urge to breathe became extremely powerful
reader I found my self in a state which I didn't want to return from the meditative state
but my body had too....
I didn't want to exit meditative state because I was not sure after the thing that happened back there, whether it would be better to return back to normal before exiting from that state
however unfortunately it didn't happened and all of a sudden I lost the meditative state
weird experience
it was kind of incorporating or overlapping with another being
so reader all day
I have been observing my self...
could not see any differences
I admit it was kind of weird experience but there was no fear involved with it
today I was calm and I laughed a lot
by chance I came by couple of very funny videos and I shit my pants laughing (not literally thanks god)
one of them was a video of a guy in batman costume voice overing to Queen's Bohemian Rhapsody playing with the two sided bathroom cabinet mirrors...
it caught me off guard...
I hope that guy also finds great laughters in his life
he raised my energy a lot today...
reader I hope you laugh every chance you got
that is one of the most great ways to be in the moment
so reader farewell until tomorrow..
I will drink my beer and enjoy my music.. (with lot's of ads...)
if you ask me currently " Three Imaginary Boys" from The Cure playing
this song has great trashy solo and fused echo vocals
anyways...I cannot change songs because I only have six skips
free plan sucks ha ha ha
a great scam an evil slumber
chained to dreams with an infinite number
a great circle locks you in the center with a difficult decipher
open your eyes dreamer, the key to exit found in your wonder
King H. Ironson
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