binding the dreams into realities
Dear Reader,
Yesterday, I passed out around eight and woke up next morning at 9:30....
Its been straight 13 hours of sleep...That was the reason I did not wrote yesterday if you are wondering
It was some driving yesterday, I drove to the big city next to us which is around 75 km away from where I am at..shopping chores and checking the new place that I can move to reduce my driving
actually yesterday I was planning to write you the new experience I had in my meditation
my body said no...you have to rest big time...
when I wake up I had this pain on my neck...
now I cannot move it to right side, it gives me great pain to do so...
its because I slept on the couch and the door of the balcony was open
probably my neck was struck with the cold air current
tomorrow I can tell now that the drive is going to be painful
reader, yesterday I was blessed to do my meditation in the morning
and it was a focussed meditation after a long time...
unfortunately because of being so tired and with a clogged nose
my meditations were relieving, serene but not as deep as they used to be
reader meditation and looking within to the depths of your soul is like climbing a mountain
you climb that mountain alone, its tiring, it requires constant effort...
most of the times the view you have is the same, sometimes your view is blocked by cliffs
sometimes you have majestic views of reality that gave you an aha moment
sometimes you feel like you are lost, scared and anxious if you fell into fear
sometimes you cannot see the sun, sometimes you feel the great weight of loneliness
its the journey you took its constantly changing even though sometimes you might feel stagnation.
the experience is familiar yet sometime very unfamiliar yet you know its foundationally a part of you that you are not aware
I hear, watch and read the people talking only on the majestic moment of the self journey
but reader the naked truth is the feeling is humbling
very sincere
yes there are moments and times you feel that majestic glory with some instants
like you came up to a point where you can see the landscapes from above
and see the height and difficulty of the path you came
and also the path you need to take up
reader this is a humbling, sincere journey
don't expect to be glorified in every instant
the key is to not to give up
dear reader, yesterday in my meditation I have come to see the light giving flame inside of me
which I have seen before as well
but this time it was different...now I was able to see it from a far
with its enclosement
just like watching my inner moving power with a different set of eyes
as its been stagnant meditations over and over lately
it brings up the feelings and anxieties of
whether I lost the connection with my
inner flame..
reader as I was relieved by recognizing my inner flame intact
I also recognized that it was enclosed and it is protected within me
as my meditation progressed I have sunk into another realm
where all the light was sucked and I experienced another inner landscape
where you can see afar,
yes I also have been inside this pitch dark corner of my mind as well
but I have not seen it from this perspective
first I grown in a flame that burned within me which I was not aware of
it was a pitch black flame very weird
looks like the light giving flame but this one seems just the opposite..
although it did not feel scary or bad
it felt more like the flame of nothingness
the source, essence of everything, the inner power that initiates everything to came to be
as there is light reader there is dark
they transform to one another
reader this dark flame was also enclosed like the other light flame I knew
as I see this reader
it hit me big time....
everything in duality, everything is in cycles
even your meditation, in order to boost up the light inside you
you need to be in the dark
as your meditation progress you will focus to the light inside of you
but not all the time...
because there will be also periods you will focus to the dark inside of you
you need that dark side to create and make things come into being
dark flame
it was a weird experience
I understood that this is the period of looking in my dark self in my meditation
in order to be in the sill of your mind and heart
you need to have the control of both your light flame
and dark flame...
like the shadow of my light flame
one cannot exist without the other
response you get on the crossroads
a great spark to be relieved in space betweens
speak's of unwritten dialogues fuelled with urges
a blossoming realm of hearts domain in mind's visions
feel of home in stranger's faces with familiar nuances
miracles of strong connection, binding the dreams into realities
King H. Ironson
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